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2003-1-20 - 11:48 p.m. So, it can only get better from here, right? Please click on OLDER ENTRIES to the left of this entry if you haven't read Beginning of the End, Part One that I wrote yesterday... My father died on a Thursday. I stayed with my mom through that week and the next. (Does anyone reading need me to explain what sitting shiva is?) I've still been staying with here a few days a week just so she's not always in the house alone. This house is where we've lived since April 1971 - I was 2 when we moved here - and it's weird that he's not here. I can only imagine how bad it is for my mom. This May would have been their 35th wedding anniversary. I went back to work and half the time was commuting from my parents' house in Maryland to work in Virginia for the next month. Finally, in mid-November I started to unpack from whem I moved in September. I'm still not totally set up. I'm just not there enough. That's fine with me though. The house we were in before was so large it was easy to maintain one's solitude or privacy when needed, but it's much more difficult in our smaller 3 bedroom ranch style house. I'm sort of a freak about that privacy and solitude thing. Sometimes I wonder how I'll ever get married when I can't stand to have other people in my room sometimes. But, I digress. Back to the job situation, it was all I could do to keep up with the temp job I had and continue keeping my mom company. I kept thinking that my job would get extended and I'd stay where I was, but it did end at the end of the year as it was supposed to. December 27th was my last day and I didn't work for two weeks after that. I've got some possibilities, including two at that same company, but people seem to be dragging their feet making decisions. Now I'm working part time. I've got two interviews this week. One has got to pan out soon, I hope. I do know that I will probably never want to work for lawyers again. Money's tight, but at least I'm not as miserable as I had gotten at the law firm. I had been dating someone in the late summer/fall who was in Germany on business when my father died. He was unsympathetic as far as I was concerned, and I just stopped calling him back at one point. He was always very nice to me, but he explained to me that he was never very close with his own father, so he just couldn't understand why I was so upset. I mean, please. What's the happy stuff you say? It can't be all bad, right? Well, we are all quite enamored with my little niece. I just can't tell you how cute she is. Most of all, I love how she gets a huge smile every time she sees me and puts her arms out for me to hold her. Sometimes, things get icky in life, but the smile of a little fuzzy-headed blond ten month old girl can make you forget it all. There's lots of great music coming this way too - Will Kimbrough, Todd Snider, a Woody Guthrie tribute, Kacey Chambers, and more all in the next 90 days. 2003 can only get better....
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